Happily Ever After

And there is no happy ending, and i love him to pieces, but it just can't do. He said this is the best way, so it must be.

i wish circumstances are different, but i know i cannot change, and i won't make life difficult for you.

I am going back to writing in my diary, and i think i will be leaving this blog for awhile.
I'm not ok, don't think i will be for some time, but i will try to be ok. I can be reached by my moble, though maybe i may be in another world.

How long i don't know. But i know i must start over again. And accept the things I cannot change.

I have loved, love, and will love you. And if there is ever a chance again. I wish. i wish i wish. But we can't bring back things that are gone. We have to pick ourselves up and start again.

Start again.

Some quotes and poetry from Edna St. Vincent Millay that reflect beautifully what i feel.

"They say when you are missing someone that they are probably feeling the same, but I don't think it's possible for you to miss me as much as I'm missing you right now"

"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell."

And my favourite:

"I know what my heart is like
Since your love died:
It is like a hollow ledge
Holding a little pool
Left there by the tide,
A little tepid pool,
Drying inward from the edge."

goodbye all.